Save You

Thinking about you, wondering why my words didn't inspire you to
Get out the game, You was my dude and that will never change
Nobody might not understand why we did things our way
I tried to save you..
It makes me feel so sad that the streets claimed you
It makes me so mad that your momma and daddy left you
Damn I tried to save you ..
Didn't know how to ... or to save myself..
I just know I cared ..and them dudes was bad for your health
Still see you looking at me ..calling me counsel giving me that look
Cause I always knew you was thinking ..we laughing..me calling you a little crook
Nobody had the right to take your life
Take a Daddy from his child
Take a groom from his future wife
All over money, greed and life at 100 mph speed
You was buying  a black and mild
Got Gun down on Sunday Wow...
All I can think about is how I wanted good for you
It was me or them streets
You choose the streets ..and they burned you
Tears rolling down my face
Never have another day to tell you I love you
And you was my cool dude that I once knew
And I seen all your potentially and your heart to become somebody
else other then what you was accustom to
Man I tried to save you

Hmmm.. Do you Know?

I know you got a life
I hope you don't have a wife
I really do like you and would hate to
Be face with the choice of should or should I not to
Man.. the way you grab me, got me wanting to jump off the edge
Being in the moment and not caring what lies ahead
I wonder is that a part of me growing into this women
A part of me that wants this tall man..but don't want to be woven
Having thoughts I think I shouldn't
Dang we just met so I couldn't
You take my breath away, who wouldn't?
But then I grasp reality and show a little slack
Cause what do I know, you could already have target on my back
I'm just in the moment right now..getting sensational over your mac
Picking up on all your moves, but so fragile I feel like being attacked
Right now don't mind to get bitten..love sick bed written.. I just don't shack..
But I guess I keep my imagination and thoughts to myself  until you write back

Lady I Speak ~ That a be Jessica

100%

As I sit and enjoy you
Understand that what you do is brand new
Holding my hand as a gift
Lifting tons off my back with one lift
Listening to every word, story and song
As a key in a hole where it belongs
Favorite thing about me you say you like
Is my eyes that keep you insight
You rather have me plain with no make-up
Say I'm Sexy in a T-shirt, Jeans and Chucks
Everything I do you say is Art and Creativity
All the way down to my smile and sensitivity
Listening to me when I breath or  when I don't pronounce
words, you quote and correct me
Tell me don't get mad I just want you to speak right
Because you Beautiful and You is me
Get high of my presence and mold my future
Love Me right ,You are the best Tutor
       
         ~ Jessica ~  A.K.A. As A Lady I Speak

Get Out The Kitchen!! Before Something Burns Up!

How can one say I am in a open relationship?To me if it open its not your relationship, your means all you,to yourself etc..but to each is on. But when agreeing to these terms, can you really accept a person doing what he do with you, to someone else.What he say and feel the possibilities that  the same feeling with someone else,why not just be in no relationship and be open with yourself? I think a lot of women think they can handle this type of situation when everything works in there favor, but when it get complicated and your partner don't want to stay the night when you want them to or don't wont to no longer give you what you need then in there mind they react as if they are in a committed relationship they feel the need to start be devious,destructive and alot of more things, due to there feelings being wrap up in a open person who is probably open with everybody. The fact is a lot of people cant take the heat, but they refuse to leave the kitchen. They accept things that goes against there will, until they adapt, but still it might not be comfortable for them but they still deal with it in a sense having faith in a person words,what they tell you to initiate the foolish agreement, half the time when a person agree on these terms, its to have a slice of some one else pie.Everyone can be cool with dating someone else belongings but when some one dates a person they involved with  it, all hell break loose. Carma is a guaranteed visitor when you do things wrong,why date someone who has someone else? Some people say.."Well they not Married" but well they stay together,they have kids together, if he with her he will not speak to you.You shouldn't wont to touch that situation with a 10 inch pole! But some people can do it and do it well, but some can  not, I'm just saying why waste time and energy on someone who is obviously not yours,when you can spend that energy on someone who is not taking!

UNDERSTANDING

Where is the communication,when you need it, how can misunderstanding be mis understood when you talk all the time, Do we sometimes go out our way to receive a reward or comfort? These are things we face when dealing with a stubborn person which is  very hard but dealing with a confuse person which  is harder. Daily thought by thought mind changes etc. What makes a person say harmful things? Do they really mean it or say things when they mad, these are questions that appear to come up in any complicated situation. Communication by all means is the key to understanding, even if its a nice gesture, hug, small kiss or something to quiet the storm.Love always saves the day, but where is it when you cant see eye to eye? I suppose the define word is some how different in every lover terms, Every individual have a breaking point and a line that should not be cross.You have to decide will you be the person that cross the line or the person who draws it? Loving with a hard head can be dangerous especially when you making it difficult,when the other is so easy to love. Embrace my kindness, please don't take it for weakness, understand every mountain have its peak,understand if there is a hole in the pipe it will leak. Understand that my hands are open,understand that I understand you which I always seek. Learn to quit pushing buttons just because you know they are there,understand that managing a relationship is just like managing a store,you have to keep it up an running.

Different Patches But From The Same Quilt....

Being a sensitive creature sometimes has its up and downs, especially when it comes to family. Who am I to be blamed if someone dislike me, or think of me in a negative way. As a young girl I found things like that bothersome to me, to the point  that I was apologizing for things I didn't do, or accepting things I didn't have to, but since then I still have the same problem with almost the same people. We all have made mistakes and is to be no one judge, but to be adults you have to consider others  feelings.  thought that was a part of growing up! Why should I consider someone feelings who don't consider mine? Who am I to invite people to my home, who really don't want to be there? As I look back it does sound insane, but I had to think and almost realize,that everyone is not me, so people will do things and might not do it in consideration to your feelings. I had to also realize people are people a lot wont admit to there jealous ways, or there wrong doings unto you, they will always find a reason to put the blame on you, but as I 'm writing  this you would think I am referring to people who mistreat you and  don't know you very well, but no I am talking about family, yes family.Where is the love? But you cant choose family,you just choose choices on who you have around and sometimes that might be a bad choice ...when things hit the fan,but through it all, you live and learn.I accept those who don't accept me, I love those who don't know how to love me, but we all our different unique patches,but from the same quilt.